I wonder if...

this blog is becoming a spot for me to vent my feelings.

Guess this will happen when the writer is waiting for status of one application, is in the process of completing another, is thinking about a third one and has to come to office on Sunday (and we don't work 9 to 6, by the way)! It's not a complain, but I don't know for how long this madness will go on...

"God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." - Reinhold Niebuhr

I think I should take a lesson from here. I hope things will change for better soon. I am a big big optimist and hope is what keeps me alive in this madness of applications, work, travel (work related only!). And did I add that my parents want me to marry soon, as I am of that marriageable, issue-able age as per our relatives now. So one more thing to worry about!

Stanford essays need a lot more time than I can afford to spend, ditto for other upcoming apps. The fact that all my (three for Stanford) recommenders and myself are in four different countries at this moment doesn't help either! As if that was not enough, my reviewer is in a fifth country. Now, we call this globaliztion :-) So much so, I seem to have lost track of phone numbers, which seem to change everytime one changes a country. I have consumed more calling cards than during my last several trips combined!! Cool.. isn't it?

I need to stay positive, and positive I will be. Here is another of my favorite quotes, which keeps me ticking while I pass through this maze:

"I watched a snail crawl along the edge of a straight razor. That's my dream. That's my nightmare. Crawling, swiftly, along the edge of a straight... razor... and surviving." -- Colonel Walter E. Kurtz, Apocalypse Now

I know I am not alone in this crazy situation, there would be many many more. But be positive people, I know we deserve to get that coveted 'admit letter' :-)

Good Luck to all! Amen!